Im starting to think I suffer from depression. I dont' know anymore.

I'll be fine when Im around what is left of my "friends" otherwise Im just left home alone feeling lonely and empty. Im getting irritated by it as well- as if I hadnt had any issues since I was a kid right? Fuck that.

Deep down, I know I'm a little too harsh on my self for things and I am kinda neurotic about it. Could blame that on my bastard of a step father and loser of a biological father. But Ive noticed that Ive been making myself more of an ass in front of people and not giving a shit about what they say or think anymore.

More sarcastic, more apathetic, more raunchy, more crass, more rude. And I don't care. Making more critical choices then usual and just trying to get through the day without having dangerous thoughts.

OR maybe Im finally just starting to go insane. Who knows. Cause that would be a comforting thought at this point. Considering the fact that I havnt had a "close" relationship with a girl in forever.

Dont get me wrong, I still live by my moral. I'm still a nice guy. I'm just not going to be sorry for whoever ends up on my bad side anymore- unless they prove that they actually give a fuck about me anymore.